Dear Diary,

heylo :D

2010-05-10T07:20:00.000-07:00

TODAY IM BETTER :)
HEHEH enjoying life with friends.
The world is so big smths it doesnt really just revolve around a single soul :D
Recently watched iron man 2 and Back up plan too!
THEY ALL ALL SO HOT MAKES ME GO MELTS.
heeeeeehaarrrrrrrrr :D
Back up plan damn aww should watch with your bf ^^
Hehehheh I like my frens :)
funnyfunny,
wheeheehee I shall jian fei.
LOL, :D
All my exams half bucket water but ohwells ,mye only and i never really put in my best yet :X still quite slack.
So i shall JY MAN XD
blaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa,
worried! ABT THIS SUNDAY OMG i shall go practice OMG SCARED )):
HEE heeeeeeeeee

2010-05-08T23:18:00.001-07:00

Do you even remember?
I wanna show it to you.

2010-05-08T22:50:00.001-07:00

I fucking hate myself for always losing it.
stomach so fucking pain like some shit
Fuck man, )))))))))))))))))))))))):
))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))):
Zzzzzzzzz why are u torturing me like that,
smths im really curious to know what will happen if i die.
But i dont think anyone would even give a fucking shit abt it.
I dont even think my friends would cry for me or whatever shit la.
Zzzzzzz fuck man i hate studying i hate everything i hate myself why cant i be better and strong or what so ever shit i hate ppl who break their promises
I hate everything in this stupid world i hope smth will happen to me and i die or smthing since i dont have any courage.
I really cannot take it anymore I HOPE I DIE NOW.
Ya lor, if the world didnt suck we would all fall off.
argh im so bitchy and everything thats why i suck and no one likes me and wtf man
i have attitude problems and stuff yayaya wdv!!!!!!
only know how to cry and cry and cry but nothing is going to change for you dear bitch
so just go die
fucking hell.
bitch u just used a f load of vuglarity -.-

2010-05-08T06:36:00.000-07:00

Haissssssssss i am saddddddddd lololol.
complicated :)
Argh~
I hope you are proud of everything you did.
THANKS ALOT, you made my life so much better,
Changed everything for me.
Seriously i must try.
GO EUGENIA.
damn but i was never good at suceeding.

hais, and i have a pimple on my back :P

2010-05-01T21:15:00.000-07:00

Hey,
I just read a friend's blog.
very touching and sad that post.
Hmm i think dogs are very endearing creatures,
when no one are there, your family or your frens,
Your pet dog will be there.
Thats why i like dogs haha
Hmm,
Im super sucky hahah, my muscles all still hurts :<
I shall go study later :) i dont like the hot weatherrrrrrrrr!
hahahha sucks, these few days always alone at home one.
Lol, used to be alone alr.
How will u feel if.
all your cftaybyb
when they're not even close.
I feel nothing alr, dead.
So its okay,
lol.
Issues.

Emptyness

2010-05-01T10:21:00.000-07:00

Shall blog tmr, lol..
Desktop spoiled.
Haha feel very terrible.
not that motivated yet :/
Im a sucky fren, ):
Food is my best fren.

2010-04-24T03:45:00.000-07:00

Hello :))))
I just woke up! :)
Now i eating noodles damnnice :D but i very full! :D
But of cource im still going to finish eating it.
These few days keep eating sleep eating sleep watch tv play comp blablaboring life but ohwells :D
Not in the mood and very lazzy go out so i feel abit bad smths always pangseh my frens.
Todayyyyyyy chinese oral, not very good hahaha.
Aft that go tamp eat with the guys (see ah i eat )
Then go huat house slack awhile, should have gone home change but lazy~
Then later go tamp wanna watch the Monga.
Nc 16! some of us manage sneak in i guess?
Hahahah, but some of us cant cause school uniform! ):
i kinda wanna watch the movie with..
LOL, but nevermind so me and huat go eat mcflurry ftw,
Then some of us went to his house agnnnnn
wasnt that bad
watch phobia 2 quite okay ;)
The last fift(omg i suddenly forget how spell fifth) eh okremmber -.-
story was quite hilarious.
Then watch alr then play taiti,
quite fun haha!
Then the guys came huat house so i went home as they were gonna play ball :D
feel so moved today i had smilies wanna cry hahahahah!

strangers are better.

2010-04-23T05:32:00.000-07:00

At this stage, i rather be strangers.
Haha
eh i guan xin you lah
lol, hais.
)))))))))))))))))):
What more can i want?
you dont even care ):
promises are nothing then
You will never understand,
i hope u look me in the eyes and stab me
haha nights, i wanna be a superhero ):
):
):
Hais.
zzzzzzz
life is meaningless :D
everybody got somebody and i have nobody
hahahaha
lol, my fault kay.
but what regret can do? nth,
not fair, i want time to go back.
lol, u dont seem to get smths girls do things to make
u jealous, but its not worth it, im so misunderstood.
i hate myself :D

2010-04-23T03:44:00.000-07:00

sorry abt the negative post yesterday :/
Guess im feeling better.
Not feeling better also no point right :)
haha, okay the day was not bad.
I kinda ok with them
tessa and weishan and carolyn quite nice
I like them alot.
haha, looking forward to what we practised ^^ quite hilarious.
Excited, but of cause mid years comes first.
Just now taking the taxi i wondered what impact would it have on the human body if someone suddenly ipens the door and jumps out. :O all the oncoming cars how?
haha weird thought omg.
hais, sad but not able to do anything,
But i really want to, really ):
))):
)':
but there's nth i can do.

i can hear the bells; but i seriously cant.
think of me, think of me falling when u say goodbye.
I was trying to fly but i couldnt find wings
then u came along, and changed everything.
You lift my feet off the ground spin me around you made me crazier crazier

I dont wanna talk about it
It makes me wanna cry
Every time I pour out my emotions
I feel emptier inside
I don't know how to play it like I'm not in love with you,
But I'll try Even though I do...still
Miss you
Just like the air that I breathe
I need you
With me
I'm not gonna lie
I cant imagine my life
With out you but I
Suppose I will survive...
I'm not gonna play myself
Every time my cell rings
Checkin for your name
I promise that
I'll never tell You how I feel
And I know that you dont feel the same
Did you think that you could hurt me so
I just gotta let you go
Everytime I find myself alone
ooooh I...
Miss you
Just like the air that I breathe
I need you
With me
I'm not gonna lie
I cant imagine my life
With out you but I
Suppose I will survive...
Dont try to explain
Why your love's changed
Boy you really broke my heart this time
I wont let it take away my pride
or Who I have inside
Boy I'm torn between
every thing how could
I feel nothing
I woulda done anything
If it would mean
I could make you love me
You're the one I need
But you still believe
We can never be...
And I miss you
More than the air that
I breathe
I need you
With me
I'm not gonna lie
And I can't imagine myself
Without you but
I suppose I will survive
I'll be fine, dont worry about me
I'll be okay

till u i was nothing but lonely nights now all are left are sad goodbyes

2010-04-22T03:35:00.000-07:00

I thought i was alright until just now.
Last time i didnt like to be alone yet now i found it actually quite normal alr.
Walked down hill alone,
all quiet.
I think alot wanted to exploit all my emotions here but i guess its not that worth it.
I feel very alone
i've changed if you remembered knowing me when i was sec 2.
Everything around was so free then, didnt have to worry abt anything.
Love can make u feel like the happiest thing in the world yet at the same time
it can also make u feel the exact opposite.
I have always been the onlooker not really experiencing these type of things myself.
Didnt think it was worth it.
Didnt really give a damn abt it.
Just wanted to enjoy life with my frens.
Yet now, i am no longer who i used to be.
People who doesnt know me
might think i am very cheerful and stuff
but i dont think so. not anymore.
I am not as innocent, i didnt want to grow up.
I didnt have a choice, why must reality be so cruel?
Why do i always screw up everything,
Last year was hectic,
Many stuffs happened.
It was the first time smone made me felt this way, didnt want to try anything abt it though.
I dont understand, i thought i was different.
Many ppl warned me what i was getting into
I didnt have a choice did i?
I make wrong decisions, but nobody actually gave me a chance.
I was just trying to be nice. I dont see what i did wrong.
It was just my first time why dont u guys understand nor see it?
I didnt want to be who i am now.
I didnt want it,
I did try my very best to change.
With new frens and all.
It just showed me how caught up i was in my perfect world and everything.
Indeed, the world is far from perfect,
circumstances, i had to grow up, had to be more mature,
I know i dont fit into this clique because i am different.
I am very crazy, retarded and tomboyish type of person.
I used to laugh about nothing, but now im plain boring.
someone showed me what i was worth, but now im worthless of cause.
someone doubted me, but i dont think i was that kind of person.
Are u that kind of person. someone whom everybody says u were.
But i believed u.
but why u doubt me because u were afraid im like you?
Someone made the year feel better for me of cause.
But within the past few hours i realised another thing
I have never mattered, i guess i was just another toy who looked cute.
Im a toy, an interesting toy that u found interesting at the beginning.
You talked to me.
I gave u chances but u didnt give me.
Why are u so cruel and didnt give me time,
You never had the courage to clarify, until the end.
But you are not the beginner at this, i was.
But i know this world is unfair.
didnt think you would be the one who would drive me into the corner.
You were the last one i thought who will do this.
But i shallnt harp abt it anymore. I have never felt good enough,
didnt have confidence, feel far than inferior.
Right now though, the world may seem crowded.
around me and anything.
But i know that nothing is going to change, nth is going to come,nth is going get restarted
Tanying and all has their own frens and things will never be the same.
CCA ended and all my frens are all concentrated with their studies.
I am here but i feel so left out
so left out.
It'll never be the same.
I'll never be the same.
If only i have the power to restart or even have the confidence to just end it all.
I find everything meaningless now.
I have the clique.
But im only close to her.
And she will not be there for me all the time its not her job.
I really feel alone.
Im so upset but who cares right?
fucking retarded and caught up in this mess i hate myself to the core
i hope the rain would drown me or hopefully just by surprise smth comes and end it all since i dont
have that amount of courage.
sorry.
going school, i hope everything around me dissapears.
having a headache.
But obviously u will never know how i feel because u dont even know me.
u said u clarified but if u actually think carefully,
u gave me hope and then crushed it
u didnt exactly clarifyed it to the core
u told her u regretted what you were, if u had the chance u wanna change that.
i also right? but no one is going to give us the chance.
right now u just make me doubt u endlessly
flamboyant.
sorry
sorry i know i suck at keeping my emotions close
but this time i think this is good enough

2010-04-19T05:14:00.000-07:00

thought it over
i'm feeling much better nw
don't feel bad
its ok
sorry for being a burden and all
esp when im so heavy and fat
haha..
studies most impt
tdae quite glad didnt flunk emaths test that bad
careless and all but i guess its quite ok considering
that my emotions were super unstable those days
so i dint study
hais eugenia slackslackslack
I shall study hard
lol..
wanna get that sense of achievement.
I will try and move on
even though its quite hard
cause u dont see me liddat
penetrating my heart is hard plus im a weirdo
heh, shall go study amaths later ):
I dunno differciation well (see i dont even know how to spell )
sadddddddddddd

2010-04-18T01:29:00.000-07:00

I can honestly say.
You've been on my mind since i woke up today.
I look at your photograph all the time.
These memories came back to life, and i don't mind.
Remembering those simple things,
Remember till i cry.
But the one thing I wish i'd forget.
The memory i wish i'd forget is goodbye.
I woke up this morning and played all the songs.
And throwing up my tears, i sang along.
I picked up the phone and then put it down.
Cause i know i'm wasting my time
but i don't mind.
How do i get closer to you?
When you keep it all on mute.
Cause your not a man,
Your just a mannequin.
I wish you could feel
my love is real
but your not a man.
I dont wanna feel like this.
I dont wanna freak you out
but i
think that i might said too much
didnt mean to
think i might have said its you and i
guess i should leave this behind
guess i should erase and rewind
but somehow i cant seem to stay away
i dont wanna sound desperate
but i am
so say that you'll come around
i dont want to stand in line
like i used to
i dont want to have to scream and shout
cause im the kind of girl that sticks like a tatoo
yea im the kind of girl that wears you out
you never do return my calls
its like we never met at all
but no matter what
iwawfu
iwfu
iwfu

what if

2010-04-17T09:03:00.000-07:00

dont speak i cant believe this is happening, our situation isnt right,get real who you playing with, i never thought you be like this. you were supposed to be there by my side. When u said that u want me i just dont believe it, your're always ready to give up and never turn around.

what if i need you baby? would you even try and save me? Or would you find some lame excuse to never be true. what if i said i loved you? would you be the one to run to? or would you watch me walk away, without a fight.

Im so sick of worrying that ya gonna quite over anything. I could trip and you let go like that. Everything that we ever were seems to fade but not the hurt. Cause you dont know all the good things from the bad. when i say that i want you, you know that i mean it. and in my hour of weakness theres still time to try.

Everytime i try to speak you stop me. cause every little thing i say is wrong. You say your noticing but u never see, this is who i really am that you cant believe. makes me wanna know right now issit me you'll live without, or would u change your mind? what if i need you.

Empty

2010-04-16T22:28:00.000-07:00

Everytime i feel sad or what, i'll just come to this dead blog..
I dunno, i have never felt so sad before.
Maybe i shall private this blog soon.
I feel so lost.
Its all my fault anyway.
I have always took things for granted.
If only time can be turned.
I'll do anything.
I dont mind giving up anything.
But now i know, studies are the most important.
So right now, in my life, the most happiest thing i can do is just to study only.
Why did everything pass so fast.
Yet everything is still vivid.
I really did try, maybe i didnt try harder enough?
Or my character is really that sucky.
Everytime smth happens u will be here.
Now you are not even here when i just want a there.
everything can make me cry but this makes me feel like dying
I must be brave. No breakdowns in school or at home i do not allow myself to.
But i cant. But its okay.
I really wish that i can sleep forever and fade.
I will be brave afterall if i do smth really stupid my parents will be the ones who suffer.
What did u tell me when i was sec 3 i still could remember. we werent even that close.
So right now i think being strangers are actually better.
But i cant.
Why must things be like this.
So sorry.
Why couldnt i tell?
I am really stupid
but I dont deserve any pity.
sorry...
Am i a replacement?
8 more months.
This time of last year u said i was cute.
stupid msn history.
But why must i study hard.
I alr have no goals or motivation.
No. mood. to. do. anything.
But i must, yea yea i know. haha
Music is very nice.
But some genres just makes me..
I'll try my best to be a dead person.
Cause dead person has no feelings right.
Or i'll zoom all the way outside planet earth and see
that im not even a dot. so my emotions are worth nothing just like me.
There are those who are in much worser situations.
I still have mouth nose eyes and ears.

Maybe i should go be a christian haha heard that its actually good..
my ochey very pain, but thanks for pinching me awake.lol.

Cause i dont wanna know if its the last time.
Please dont say if its a so.
Tell my heart is not goodbye.
And do this one thing for me.
Make up some stupid story now.
Its alright, keep the truth and tell me lies.

I'll put his picture down and maybe get some sleep tonight.
He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar.
The onlything that keeps me wishing on a wishing star.
The only one who's got enough me to break my heart.
He's the song in the car. I keep singing only why i do.
He looks at me i fake a smile so he wont see (:

hey there

2010-01-26T01:52:00.000-08:00

Helloooooo. school has opened with a rough start! D:
But its okay, heh i shall blog more abt in another blog soon, dontwant some stalkers to see hahahahah.
errr i eating ice cream now AGain.
Heh and i just went to cut my hair, if u didnt know my hair is DAM thick so my head feels like it loss like 5kg jkkjk 1kg?
everything was like so heavy even when i run in P.E my rubber band like cannot take the weight.
But long pontytail make me look more femenine hahah but YAY now i look cuter! HAHA :P
yay i like cute.
hahahah okay i dunno what i talking.
School have been ~.~
the work is ~.~
Some ppl make me feel ~.~
I dont understand everything ~.~
I am so busy ~.~
blablabla lor ~.~
hahah and recently like yesterday i just got punished to copy like 20 gonghans :P
ahhh but i doubt i learnt a lesson la.
Haha im breaking my promise! i shall not use comp on mondays to thursday.,
Anyways my desktop mysteriously spoiled agn so i using laptop. dontlike veyr hot!
and allll my songs etc not inside.
grr
Heheh shall i buy a HOT PINK nano or itouch or iphone leh?
haha. if the iphone or touch got pink then shiok already.
I want a blackberry too! but i want a white one o.o ironic
okayu i want everything in the world. I very greedy! haha. okay must curb this illness.
anws new sec ones just came in! :D i hope to lookk like a COOL senior instead of a dumband retarded one, haha
I dont understand but i only can fit in with some ppl well.
Thats weird la.
Im weird and i think everybody is weirddddddddd this year ._______.
Damn! haha and please ignore previous emo posts very ~~~~~~ disgusting leh hahahaha.

I want to grow shorter and thinner.

arghhhhhhhhh damn irritated now.. but cannot use vuglar.
I dunno why ppl around me like KEEP losing phones like damn ):
haha im feeling absolutely very random.

hmm did i mention it before? haha i actually want to be a ___ when i growup haha i want to show ppl my talents instead of hiding it. very bhb i know :D hahahah
hope that on ___ day this year after os i will at least be able to present it to batch LOLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL XD okay i very paisehn nw. BYE
i so dontwant to do homework ): I dontwant TO GROW OLDER ):
anws i think _______ IS DAMN CUTE HEHEH bye :)
oh and i want to be optimistic again :)
Dont show ppl im sad. heheh BYE im bored and random :)

2010-01-04T05:02:00.000-08:00

i thought it would be easy but i was wrong.
Why must this happen again?
I will never never never ever believe anyone anymore.
Teach me abt frens?
All only act like you care but no its fake.
If i give up on myself its my own problem right?
You all dont even trust me.
What i want back now is just my character.
Who cares if its childish?
Im not me anymore, i wasnt like this.
I dontwant to be like this, i dont want to have moodswings every second.
I will cause a burden to ppl.
I hate this.
wdv i shall go and bury myself in my chinese book for now.
i try not to say vuglar no matter how affected i am.

Please do not read if u dont comprehand cause i dont want u to misunderstand

2010-01-03T04:37:00.000-08:00

Hellooooo (:
Im back man.
Havent do homework so screwed but im kinda excited.
I got alot mixed feelings now abt everything since its a new year.
Last year i realised many things happened.
Yea im not really sensible.
I still cant believe im sec 4 alr.
Wow 4 years zoom past.
Anws short post,
Its a new year and this year is going to be BOOMZ
i shall continue next time since now everything is so messy my mom just opened the luggages so my house also kinda boomz now.
haha!
I shall think of my new year resolutions soon (:
Anws i learnt alot this year.
Sorry to those that i have hurt and everything.
Time cannot be gone back so
i guess i'll just treasure whoever is with me nw.
and currently i think singapore is very hottttttt.

hahah tata for now i shall learn to be more..

Suddenly

2010-01-03T04:36:00.000-08:00

Suddenly I, am in front of the lights
Everything, I'm feeling
Scary and beautiful at the same time
And every day I try just to breathe
I want to show the whole world
The truth inside of me
Suddenly people know my name
Suddenly everything has changed
Suddenly I feel so alive
In the blink of an eye
My dreams begin to rain
Suddenly time, feels like the wind
It changes everywhere I go I'm just trying to fit in
Now here I stand
And I'm still just that girl
I'm following my heart
In this amazing crazy world
Suddenly people know my name
Suddenly everything has changed
Suddenly I feel so alive
In the blink of an eye
Suddenly I am center stage
Suddenly I am not afraid
Suddenly I believe again
In a blink of an eye it's happening now
As my dreams begin to rain
Iwant to say to love me for me
What's inside
I'm gonna be positive, not run away, so much for you
This is my lifeSuddenly I am center stage
Suddenly I am not afraid
Suddenly I believe again
In the blink of an eye
My dreams begin to reign

Make some noise

2010-01-03T04:23:00.000-08:00

It's easy to feel like you're all alone
To feel like nobody knows
The great that you are, the good that's inside you
Is trying so hard to break through
Maybe it's your time to lift off and fly
You won't know if you never try
I will be there with you all of the way
You'll be fine
Don't let anyone tell you
That you're not strong enough
Don't give up
There's nothing wrong
With just being yourself
That's more than enough
So come on and raise your voice
Speak your mind and make some noise
And sing -
Hey! Hey!Make some noise
Hey! Hey yeah!
You want to be known
You want to be heard
And know you are beautiful
You have so much to give
Some change you wanna live
So shout it out and let it show
You have a diamond inside of your heart
A light that shines bright as the stars
Don't be afraid to be all that you are
You'll be fine
Don't let anyone tell you
That you're not strong enough
Don't give up
There's nothing wrong
With just being yourself
That's more than enough
So come on and raise your voice
Speak your mind and make some noise
And sing -
Hey! Hey!Make some noise -
Hey! Hey yeah!
You can't just sit back and watch the world change
It matters what you've got to say
There's no one else who can stand in your place
So come on it's never too late
Maybe it's your time to lift off and fly
You won't know if you never try
Don't let anyone tell you
That you're not strong enough
Don't give up
There's nothing wrong
With just being yourself
That's more than enough
So come on and raise your voice
Speak your mind, make some noiseAnd sing -
Hey! Hey!Make some noise -
Hey! Hey yeah!Hey! Hey! Make some noise
Speak your mind and make some noise
And sing hey yeah, hey yeah, hey yeahMake some noise
Hey yeah, hey yeah, hey yeah
Make some noiseHey yeah, hey yeah, hey yeah
Make some noiseHey yeah, hey yeah, hey yeah
Make some noise

this is so randome (:

2009-12-15T22:06:00.001-08:00

i may seem vain but im not really the extreme type okay. anws all girls are vain even if u dont admit that. i admit im vain (:

anyways this is my now the nails O.O weird

before that was this!

cool right?! HAHAHAH my nails same as wallet.

my wallet is made up of my three fav colours :D

smth random. LOL my dad bought this underwear HAHAH damn nice i also want to be a guy -.-!

hahhahahaha but mine owned his!!!!!!!ownage! LOL if u are a guy please skip this part -.-

WTFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF AHHHHHHHHHHH -.- this was such a calming post until i accidentally deleted everything! hahahha okay nvm i shall DO EVERYTHING AGAIN lol.I was saying..No wonder ppl like to move to livejournal cause can have locked post :D I kinda want this post to be locked but ohwell i guess no one will read it (:Ok lets start from my birthday hahahha.I would really like to thank everyone who wished me (: i really appreciate it thanks! :*

Nevertheless i was still kinda dissapointed but nvm i guess you are not really a fren. Anyways whats a fren? someone who actually helps u when u are in trouble. Not just plain using your mouth to talk u know. Ppl may not approve who i hang out with but i mean what u you guys know. do u even actually understand me that well. And it just shows how little trust and faith u have for a little girl like me. Btw im not childish or immature. im growing up now. nvm i shall not say anymore. (:

this cool quote band me manjing and clarice bought (: guess which is mine?

Hhahaha thanks to manjing and claricetwin dears who surprised me befor my actual birthday when we went out :D i really enjoyed that day and thanks again for that PINK CAKE (: thnaksthanks i love you two loads :D hahahha thanks at least u two dearies made me never think of all the bad things and make me feel sad for the day :D thnks alot i love u two <3>

On my actual birthday, jo and max were nice enough to pei me. thanks :D hahahahah abit sad cause i had choir but its okay actually. Sometimes during meeting i really enjoy it ppl may think im dumb and retarded but at least i am myself during the meeting and is actually enjoying and laughing. Yea and HAHA CHRIS never scold me! it was a birthday treat man HAHA but i still got fined LOL. but nvm. Yay and jo hugged me when i going to cry hahahahah thanks :D lovessssssss!

Three day aft my birthday was alvina dears birthday :D hahha so i actually same age as her for three days i love her alot too! :D i remmeber that day germaine and regina and tessa and weishan came my house to surprise me when i was asleep in my pj and socks o.O :D hahahahah AND GERMAINE COOKED FOR ME (: hahahaha thanks for the TG to gereginatessa (: hahahah after tessa and weishan bathed and me! we all went town and stuff :D quite fun! abit sad its belated :P but nvermind at least u guys had the heart ^^ hahahah aprecciated too <3! hahahah got more unglams BUT I LAZY UPLOAD ALR!

Seriously though i didnt believe abt belated and stuff until i actually felt it. LOL it was horrible hahahahahah. i not blaming anyone hor..........HAHAH but seriously these are all damn emtional stuff i can cry now!OKay but seiously the days mostly around my birthday were really messed up i cried everyday not only once hahahahah -.- seriously eugenia. -.-zzzzzzzzz

ANWSSSSSSSS. ALSO THANKS TO YEEYING AND MANJING LOL I DONT BLAME U TWO ONCE AGAIN (: and yea i liked the pink BOLSTER HAHAHAH i alr fat enough now i need to sleep with this last years birthday soft toy rabbit and this year's LOL no space alr. i alr took out all my soft toys alr hahahahah. now sleeping with two big ones! :D thanks i love u TWO (: (yeeying and manjing not the soft toys)
anws cutting THREE birthday cakes is not really unlcuky right?! hahahahhaha i dontwant next year to screw up like this year again u know.

BLUR!

hahahah recently go manjing house with jo dear :D we eat ALOT and got this tire burst scare me this crazy woman here screaming hahahahah. milo ice cream really very nicce ( hahahah sorry random) we ate pasta mania and did farewell stuffffff ^^ HAHAHAH greedy jo LOL.

Another day went ikea with the girls :D LOL i was late AS USUAL so i just went there for food :D hhahahah sad my cute face isnt in the pic i was the camera girl :D

Anyways sorry to tanying i PANGSEH U T.T sooooooooo sorry. hahahhahaa. damndamn sorry...

Ok this week is going to be busy too so i wont think much alr (: Tmr iss.... thursday? should be going out with clique. Then friday IS FAREWELL so excited but havent DO ANYthing omg! later i shall go think. thennnn sat GOT GATHERING HAHAH yay excited too. can see my cousins WHEEEEEE (: yayayyyyyyyyyyyy then mathilda is coming to stayover! (: UNTIL MONDAY LEH LOL but i sunday got some caroling thing. i shall try and pul her along :/ hahahhaha then after that I TUES GOING OFF ALR. until SCHOOL REOPEN OMG alot ppl is going to miss me la HAHAHA, and i havent done hw! but jasper told me the vice principal quite goodlooking LOL yay looking forward :D

okay anyway now the not so childish stuff.

I thought abt everyyyyyyyyyyything. okay to the ppl i hurt-ed sorry okay. Then i shall growup. AND be myself (: i SHALL NOT try to fit in anymore and just treasure the ppl i have around me now. yes, and i shall also work on manymany things to improve:D im not perfect okay but no one else is. And i shall have a stronger stand on my thinking. Dont let other ppl waver me easily anymore. and i shall forget abt blaaaaaa so yea new year ahead alr. abit sad i wont be in the country for christmas as well as the new year :'( sniff i will be suffering in a negative twenty plus thirty place so maybeeee i'll be whiter when i come back (: but i dont want to have prune lipsssssss no and i dont want to have dry skin but I HATE TO PUT LOTION. argh hahahahah.

I shall try and improve on my singing HAHAH i think i still wanna be a singer when i grow up. :P sorrayeeeeeeee to those ppl that my unlucky moodwing kenaed u smthimes SO SORRY! u know who u are la. but my mood hasnt been really good.

aiyo and this post doesnt really say much also, okay i still cant typed out exactly how i feel abt many things now. ohwell nvm i also shall be studious next year, i secretly wish to be DAMN smart next year and trash YOU hahahahahahahahah. nvermind dont think i'll happen but u guys should relaly keep a watchout for me i shall not care abt what other ppl think OF MEEE ALR muahahahhaahahah.

okay so i hereby now MARK this as a new start YAYYYYY. lol -.- i mean hahah (: shall be HAPPIER AND DONT CRY ALR

holidays :DDDD

2009-11-26T06:09:00.000-08:00

HELLOOOOOOOOO I SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO longgggggggg never post alr! (:
I am so laazy man :D
school holidays past so fast of course with alps and ccas~
I slept so much i THINK okay smths alot smths little thats why soooooo tired too! :P
Heh that day go GEYLANG eat frog porridge DAMN NICE look at the pic!
hahah zzzz damn hungry now today eat DAMN little hahahah! but only today of course :D hahahah but my stomach is still bulging out ):
HEEEEE

okay today go shopping with al! :D
Yayyyyy go long never go out tgt alr! had fun. hahahah bought lots of things :DDD
HOlidays i spend so much la. Broke alr lo :) hahah POka = broke.
Still havent go out with tanying clarice manjing yeeying etc man! :D
hahahahhaha
That day go out with tanying EAT! :D
gonna buy the headphone tgt! (: i wait for u la, anyway i broke also HAHAH :D
OH AND I FINALLY LEARNT HOW TO CYCLE MAN. PRO MEEEEE.I LOOK damn pro right?!?!?! hahahah so pro man. okay but i still cant u turn properly.
Pro la only fell down afew times and fly into a bush. not bad what? (: i waNNA BE ttanner! and slimmer :D
HAHA hard!
another two more days is tessa's birthday! :DDDDDDDD and max!( same date i think! haha)
SO HAPPY BDAE HERE KAY DEAR TESSA.(:
Junhui bro really very nice to you! hope you two last forever <333>
hahah past few days go orchard hotel stay :D to celebrate tessa birthday! so funnnn! :D
hahahahha watched christmas carol midnight movie. SUCKEDDDDD.
hahahahahha.damn sad alot ppl say 2012 very nice! but everrryone watch it without me ):
hah.
very fun slept like dunon what time in the morning :D me jh and shanny go seven eleven buy
cup noodle hahahah then we all sit outside hotel room with tricia and tessa eat :D
damn full la then immediately sleep O.X
hahahahh.took turns to bath oh man tricia take so longgggg to bath :P
lol then they go buy beer dont let me go in the end i ownself stay in the hotel with the guys lol. cause i look young ~.~
hahhahaHAHAHHAHAHA i think this is the ever unglam pic i have of weishan lo HAHAHAHA dont even look like her?!?!?
Oh yea a few weeks ago also regina dear's bdae :D
Sry the conflict happened but also had fun throwing flour and water all over ehub! :D
And ate sushi buffeh :DDDDD
Heeeeeee happy belated! :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
( SORRY i havent upload the pics! )
hahha play until kena stalked by the security guard ;/
Hey germaine! :D that day(weeks ago) also go CYCLE AT ECP WITH GERMAINE AND WEISHAN :DDDDD
among all i most noob of course BUT ITS FUN i next time comfirm can do better. hahahahahah i force them keep stopping and buy food for myself to eat. So all the sweat lost = weight gained :P
it was fun bedok jetty's view quite nice:D
HAH aft that go meet tricia shelton tessa junhui chunkit they all bla.
Then play in the sea soooooooooo funny :D
Me and SHANNY DEAR :D <3>hi shanny with bigboobs :D I LOVEEEEEEE U ALOT MAN. WHY I SO FAT. hahahahah:D
i miss your MOM and BRO.
maybe tmr i go your house LETS COOK TGT ^^ heee and i can see
jonas too! (: so cute. and breena :D
hahahhaha OUR LEGS. obviously mine the middle which is the FATTEST THANKS :D
why is my teeth so yellow looking YUCK HAHA
sugarcane juice nice!
finally jo and me SLACKING while being a station master during the camp :D
HAH she's a dead person! rich taitai chris wife hahahhaha
it was a fun camp :D BUT my eyebags were like hell :D
kena SCRATCHED but nvm play like hell throw water bombs at everyone ^^ hahahah
.
YAY
i dunno what to say alr.
tessa birthday pics all these i other day then upload show u ^^ :D
TATA PPL.

yes yeeying pleas tag XD i finally updated :D

hahah PS ( dunno why my teeth so yellow i think my cam sucks la HAHAHAHAHHAHA really not so yellow one hor!)

oh ya did i mention i lost my ezlink for the second time T.T andddd freaking hell spoil my house door lock kena locked in ~.~
tessa and manjing still there laugh like toot. lollllllllllllllllll :D
byee

OMG MOST IMPT I ALMOST FORGET.
MY BIRTHDAY'S COMING SOON. 4TH DECEMBER.
PLS REMMEBER THANKS :D
hahahah :D wheeeeeeeeeee.

this year passed soooooo fast. so many things happened WOW
so manyh changes.
good and bad (:

hahah PS ( dunno why my teeth so yellow i think my cam sucks la HAHAHAHAHHAHA really not so yellow one hor!)

oh ya did i mention i lost my ezlink for the second time T.T andddd freaking hell spoil my house door lock kena locked in ~.~
tessa and manjing still there laugh like toot. lollllllllllllllllll :D
byee

BOOMZ

2009-11-01T06:55:00.000-08:00

Hhahahahah i shall post tmr okay :D

Anyways ppl should go watch chick vs dick , (kaykay :D)
and numb nuts! :) hahahahah very funnyyyyyyyyyyy.

And i wanna watch sososo many movies now! :D

Very sian cause still have 2 more extra weeks of school ):
Hahahah coraline is niceeeeeeeeeeee :) Abiiiiiiiiiiittttt scary la those child scares hahahah but nicenicenice but 3D always make me headache :P
I think the spec damn cool la hahahah.

Maybe tmr watching sister keeper with class so excited ;D cause alot ppl say the show damn nice even those hardhearted ppl also cry HAHA i wanna see ppl cry hahahahahah ^^
PPl always see my cry tmr is my turn! LOL OMG I CAN SEE WEISHAN CRY I NEVER SEE HER CRY BEFORE HAHAHAHAHA :D:D lololol :DDDDDD
yayyyyyyyyyyyyyy :) im freaking rdm :D

OH and i saw something damn ~~~~~~~.~~~~~~~~ on facebook today
so
~~~~~~~~.~~~~~~~~~~~~
yuck
yuck
YUCKY

okay tata :) damn long never post alrrrrrrrr

Weekend.

2009-10-26T05:16:00.001-07:00

Hello! (:
Long weekend, damn long never update.
I think i passed my english almost retain but never. tdae mr neo called to find my parents scare me, say i barely made it phew.
Im going to work much harder next year.
Jy to me and everyone else :D

Friday had cca as usual, i rather spam cca on tues wed and thurs then on seperate like on mon, fri and sat. cause those are the days for me to rest :/
Sat also had cca then go eat like usual again.

Sunday was bbq at jasper's and yuwen's condo.
Swam with clothes on, ate but didnt really cook hahahaha.

After playingplayingplaying,
some of us decided to ton.
Go eat, then went to this creepy place with ALOT of ants ~.~ to gamble.
Then slack at playground then time passed very fast.
Hahah then played basketball at around 4plus5plus
Me jasper khanliang vs jeremy chewy sherwin/zhisen
i damn noob hahahaha
nvm then after that we all went home :D its a looooooooong day.
Hahahahah got this scary cat keep following zhisen. then later bite him when he wanna walk away. damn joke.
took the FIRST train to pasir ris leh :D hahahah then i keep sleeping.
And watch everyone go to work while i go home! (:
I reach home at arounddddddd 6 plus am lucky quite bright i dare bath and do everything myself haha nice air also :D then bath and slept at around 7 plus.

Woke up at 12 :D
Then in the end all of us went amanda house (:
Watched dvds and ate some chickenwingssssss.
Amanda's littlest brother very small. hahah.
After that go eat dinner at whitesands.
Then now im home.

):
Oh ya sorry didnt go cca today. cause i previous day ton then too tired >.<

im waiting for hair to dry (:

2009-10-21T07:29:00.000-07:00

Hello im back (:
CONTINUE FROM TDAE GOT BACK RESULTS.
HAIS.
should i post my results here? :P
Nvm i shall start by saying that

WEISHAN IS EFFING SMART.
even though i no rights to say her cause i never study much myself,
SHE IS THOSE TYPE THAT JUST READ FLIPP THROUGH IN BEFORE EXAMS AWHILE ONE.
THEN SHE PASSED LIKE EVERYTHING..................... Hahahahhaha ^^ i supect her STEALING my intelligence lo. cause i did sosososo MUCH worser than her haha :D but its okay she got more common sense than me. but nvm la i know she very mature JUST LIKE ME YAY

If u are my fren u can see my results but provided if you are not and some very smart kid that look down on 7 suject students, i advice u not to see or you'll vomit blood.
heheh okeh.
Amath: 24/80 boohoohoo
Emath: 31/80 bleheheh
Bio: ZERO/100 (stupid ask me redo MY PAPER i got 68.5 lor sianz hahahhahaha)
errr
english: omgomg havent totalled up BUT i scared fail la cause fail english = sec 3 again.
hahahah and i dint exactly do well for my compo cause i wrote on pest and the whole compo there talking abt little irritating ants wth im damn DUMB.
Finally some green and nice ones ^^
Geog: 35/50 YAY (:
Chinese: 49/90 (kinda sad cause i wanted to get FULL marks to pull up my bio HAHAHAH zzz im damn LAME nvm i very sad cause i got alot careless :P nvm la must be contented ^^)

finish :D Tmr taking back errrrrrr chem and ss hope i can pass both of them ZZZ i dunno what to tell my maths tution cher cause i failed both -.- then SHE STILL very nice every lesson let me eat my potato chips one ): hais EUGENIA SUCKS. hahahhahah.

Okay due to my short of intelligence the clever eugenia forget what she wanted to type again OH so
thanks to everyone who encouraged me and gave me tissue paper today :D oh and the pats on my head when i crying on the table flat hahahahah ^^
Hahahhahahah thanksthanksthanks. i appreciate it!

Stupid khairui come ask me next year which sec three class i wanna go and come kp me make me cry so he scared then he in the end treat me very nice HAHAHAH.
omy, hahahaha soooooo YUP kinda disappointed that u didnt even look at me or asked me if i was okay but nvm gonna have to get over this type of toot things.

Lastly Yup sorry to ppl who didnt get what they aimed or deserved, cause this world is kinda unfair (: but its okay everything happens for a reason.
Goodluck for the other papers ! :D tata for now ^^
But im still proud of myself even though i did so badly and CRIED SO MUCH HAHA i still think im brave... cos
Im brave :D

Yayayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy i feel happy today dunno why (:
hahah tdae tessa and weishan see me eat ice cream they also buy and eat LOl so hard to imagine them eating ice cream, I guess i make their childhood more enjoyable Wheehee :D

Not gonna give a damn (:

2009-10-21T03:52:00.000-07:00

Hellooooooooo even though i cried like so much today cause of my results,
I think its okay la better than ppl who do so well then still say they do very badly all these -.-
Must learn to be contented :O but cant blame them, They studied i din't (got study abit lah hehe) :P
Must not give up still ((:
Next year im gna be damn hardworking with amanda ^^
Like cheryl boh type! :D
Hie amanda are u reading this?! Hahahaha.
YOU DONT WORRY TOO MUCH. :)
YOU CAN DO IT MUST HAVE FAITH~
(later i go tag at your blog la :D)

Hie tanying~ U did okay la i know u studied very hard ^^
And cant blame u cause u spent most of your study time to encourage your frens ma
Sorry my fault ! :D hahahahh continue to study hard WE MUST GO OUT TGT HOR ^^. <-omg my mole hahaha.

HAHA HOPE THAT WE CAN ALL GO OUT HAPPILY EVER AFTER ^^

omgomg tdae i veryyyyyy full eat alot again! munch crunch blebla. Everytime sad or what will eat extra MORE appepitie increase alr lo (:

OKAY. just as i promised... :P

AHHAHAHAHA (: funny ying LOL. dont kill me!

Worried.

2009-10-20T05:11:00.000-07:00

Hello, tdae went to ngee ann poly. Its quite okay i think based on my stupid brains cant get into a jc la so yup i think im going to a poly.
Went to eat with my parents after that.
Shall post pics other day cause im supposed to bath now haha.
Not really in a good mood.
Read smth just now.
Stupid audi also not working.
(sorry like abit emo)
Tmr getting results if i fail anymore other than my amaths and bio. Im gna retain.
Mrs law said alot crap to my mom like i not hardworking, keep using phone all this shit i swear Damn irritating u know now my mom kp me. (f**k la) still want me go be counciled -.-
Must start exercising alr i very fat yup.
damn sian.

Smth to myself. stop caring abt all these unimpt things alr. haha. hais im a failure

This is probably gonna be the last

2009-10-19T06:07:00.000-07:00

THANKS FOR THE READ TDAE (: I know im entertaining hahahahahh :D Hmmmm~ i like my previous post second pic even though weishan never look at me LOL hahahah ^^ Always take nice pics liddat then she never see :P Heehee going to watch my nine o clock show alr tata SMELL ya tmr kay. Lastly, Watch out for me and tanying last time when we damn zilian and put makeup pics DAMNNNNNN funny HAHAHAHAH, okay so watch out TATA :D

sneak peak HAHAHAHAH heng never show my mole. LOL
Correct, means u all can see my mole that is missed now (:

Okeh bye (: LOVES XOXO.

Hello for the FOURTH TIME

2009-10-19T05:14:00.000-07:00

HAHAHAHAHHAH this is when Weishan learns how to do my pig face LOL so nice (:
HEHEHAHAH i like to take pics with weishan even if she's not interested LOL then it turns out mostly liddat. )));
HAHAH i know this is very unglam to you yeeying ^^ taken during the bbq I love you WOMAN. very fun go ntuc and eat tgt ^^ (she is spamming me with smses now cause i tell her going to put her unglam pic lol :P)
Weird and act cute with spec hahahaha

HI AGAIN.
Im back from eating with my parents we went to eat lazy upload pics la heheh (:
I went eat with my daddie and mommie :D
I sweat is damn spicy ever. Im damn good at eating spicy okay! :D
HAHAH i agree with weishan once again(she very good at accuracy one~)
That a blog is good for me i very talkative alot things say type so must keep myself entertained by talkin to myself LOL. everytime i talk to her is talking and laughing at myself one la.
HAAHAH but germaine tessy and regina say she got influenced but my childishness abit alr~~~ hohoho (:
My stomach is REALLI big now like shore platform and cliff hahahah ^^
and my fringe still hasnt grow longer GAHHH !
signing offfffff (:

Edit/ I just ate ice and logan ^^

random me!

2009-10-19T00:59:00.000-07:00

Post full of RANDOMNESS (: im very random one hor.

hahahah not fair alot of ppl in this world so pretty and everrrything nice figure and everyyyyything so rich blabla so unfair right HAHA but nvm must try and be contented la :P (mostly japanese and celebrities like megan fox and taylor swift etcetcetcetccccccccc)
Issit me or i think i veryveryvery BORED keep posting today :I

Hhahahaha, stomach painnnnn liao cause these few days keep eating junk :P
I feel like eating frog leg now, anddddd stingray with lala kanggong all these AHHHHHH, okay i shall stop thinking and talking abt food :P

Hmm i smthimes will miss old times but dunno la lol. Hahahaha saw funny things online just now hahahahahahah. I hope my pimples improve ^^ i keep plucking them arghyarghyarghy now all redred hahah (:

Sian holidays is jsut going to pass with alot of cca cca and cca bored.

cant help but regretregretregret.

Hope everything turns out to be better even though now also not exactly very bad for me la haha i donno what talking me :D hmmmmmmmmm btw weishan mom cook veryveryvery NICE i miss her food alr gahhhhhh~ heeeeheee.
Very long never eat sakae buffeh oredi! Omg i talking abt FOOD AGAIN. >.<
Yay i have a 2 new helix ear piercing btw (: so 2+2 = four on my right ear~

Lololololololllllllllllllllllllll:D me trying to be a model and ACT CUTE(i admit) with a sweet amandapeeeee gave me haha :D

HAHAH trying to act cool but failed miserably with my new sunglass (: shall post weishan with her sunglass soon! (:
HAHAHAHAH since germaine seldom see blogs i passed this damn funny pic so decided to put this here :D dont dare to put weishan's unglam cause i know she is out here somewhere reading. RIGHT? :P
Hmm i loveeee colours and yogurt ice cream :D
I wanna watch Jennifer's body :D aww i love megan HAHA
I LOVE MEGAN FOX ANDDD ALOT OF HOT CELEBRITIES :D

Lala

2009-10-18T23:56:00.000-07:00

I miss my old fringe :P My new fringe sucks and cant block my NEW pimples(stress la ) heehaahoo.

Anyways, for my bio test i just hope i wont get a big FAT zero haha :D
Hmm~ I think like what my mom say i everytime do bad evil things comfirm will kena find out one so means that heaven dont want me do evil stuff so i shouldn't do evil stuff haha (:
But still I still think the bio thing is mostly i suay and unfair la :P but nehMIND lolololol :D

Oh ya to you, ~ Hmm, i dunno what to say abt u alr leh, you are kinda weird O.o, if u really got so much things to say come and talk to me, better than liddat right. make me so uncomfortable and i guess u ain't feeling it better.

So boring i wanna holidays to come NOW. but before that must face the problem if i will retain or not first haha (: and my results and maybe disapointment from parents friends tution teachers and teachers i guess. gahh i dontwant anyone to retain bleh. Boring, i just keep watching sonny with a chance LOL (heh is this new disney channel funny show starring demilevato :P sorry abit childish) hahahah i got so many movies I WANNA WATCH TOO ^^ the meatball movie YAY

and i need to jian fei like go run, do gym, cycling, rollerblading, ice skating and doing every FUN thing in the holidays with my friends yay excited :D Kbox with tanying and frens too :D hahahah from exam until now i say i want jianfei but i havent even exercise but keep eating alot of nice food :D sian why this world got so many delicalies LOL i dunno how to spell :/

heeeeheeee i Just forget what i wanna type zzz
Note to myself: must have more pics next time if not so boring nothing to see haha (:
Dont we look cute esp me :D hahahah :X I like to stick out my tongue i got long tongue :P

Ok love, eugenia :D talk later!

Boomz

2009-10-18T23:54:00.001-07:00

Hello peepo (:

Hmm, Decided to have a blog once again but abit sad i deleted all my last time posts alr, even though they were very childish and immature posts (not saying i now very mature alr la haha) they were still memories i guess.

Time really past dam fast i swear :O so many things changed and i've changed too. Hopefully for the better hmm. Quite regret manymanymany things but nvm alr over alr so cant do anything but hope i'll be a better person now! :D

BUT hopefully still next year i want to be in 4B not 3B hor! ):
Can all blame it on myself la i didn't study enough also never pay attention for the past year or perhaps my whole life haha. Nvm if next year i still in 4B yay :DDD i will be like damn hardworking i swear :DDD

Very hot today, i don like so hot the weather almost wanted to name my blog ihatehotweathers.blogspot.com :P

I realllllllllly regret alot of things la lame me-.-
Just saw smth la, abit unhappy but nvm must learn to stop worrying and thinking so much just be myself and dont care what ppl think of me anymore cause ; Don't attempt to Please Everybody ma. (: Yup shall continue this other day! yayy i like my baby photos :D

Loves, Nia(: